Then the LORD said to me, "Go again, love a woman who is loved by her husband, yet an adulteress, even as the LORD loves the sons of Israel, though they turn to other gods and love raisin cakes."
Hosea 3:1
Luke Skywalker in Star Wars. Neo in The Matrix. Harry Potter in all those books. They were living ordinary dull lives, thinking of themselves as ordinary and dull. But all along there was something extraordinary within them. They had a destiny to fulfill… This is your story. You were created to fulfill a destiny that was designed by God before your birth (Eph. 2:10). There isn’t anything ordinary about you. Even as you read these words, you feel a supernatural strength stirring deep inside you.
—Unka Glen (unkaglen.tumblr.com)
(Source: unkaglen)
My whole adult life, I have been saying that I would be willing to do whatever it takes for God. I’ll recklessly abandon my life and be a nomad and do whatever he asks of me. I mean I was a missionary for four years. That counts, right? Didn’t I do my time of reckless abandoning? Don’t get me wrong those four years were pretty epic. I traveled the world, met amazing people, and encountered our amazing God. Nearing the end of my missionary time, I began to ask God for a normal life. I wanted a job, I wanted to go to college, I wanted… structure….stability. See, I have this control issue. I like to plan, coordinate, know what’s going to happen. So, letting God take over is a little hard for me. It was hard not knowing how much money would come in that month. It was hard watching my friends graduate college when I should be with them. It was hard not getting married and having babies when everyone else was. However, I knew God had me right where he wanted me. So I came home. I got a job and I went to school. I am currently still in school, a few years later, and no degree.Oh and still no husband or babies. I dont even know what I want to be. I’ve changed my major at least four times and I’m just as confused as ever. I’ve worked minimum wage jobs where I have met the most precious people, but no where that I go do I feel the joy I felt when I was in missions. That’s where my heart and passion lives. God answered my prayers by letting me come home for a while, but now Im wondering if it’s time to go back out. The hymn lyrics from above have been in my head all day. Am I willing to surrender all? Am I willing to lay it all back in his hands and relinquish control? To be honest, I have no idea. I would love to give the typical answer of YES ABSOLUTELY! However, I want to take time and pray through this. If you’ve read this far, first of all good for you, and second please pray for and with me. I want to make sure this is what God is calling me to do and to have the peace and assurance that he will provide in every manner possible. He’s the best Dad in the whole universe and I believe he will.
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken;
Take me, Jesus, take me now.
If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day.
—E. B. White (via girlwithoutwings)
